2022 – It’s going to be interesting, that’s all I can say.
Going into the year, I really focused on setting up some goals and expectations. I already knew I was going to let go of the branding portion of my business (which was very helpful in 2021, but I just didn’t love it and didn’t feel like it was a good use of my time), but I didn’t know I would be letting go of my business completely.
It took me awhile to get on board with what God was telling me to do.
1. focus on homeschooling my kids
2. taking care of my body
3. committing to my 2 callings (Young Women second counselor and stake camp leader over YCL’s)
4. and practicing my art
There was a lot of praying and a lot of prayers answered. A lot of inspiration, humbling, and eye-opening. I finally had to accept that closing the “doors” of Gardner Lane was actually a good idea.
But now that I am officially not working, it feels very freeing.
Today was the first day. The kids came home from their grandparents’ yesterday, and today we started the winter semester of school.
Not feeling rushed through lessons so I could get to “what was really important” made today so much less stressful. I could actually teach Malory her reading lesson without being frustrated when she doodled on the page before she wrote her spelling word. And I could wait for Paislee to drive her boat around the whole room before paying for her boat ticket with as few coins as possible during math.
And I could just let them soak in the information at their own pace.
Now here I sit, pondering it all, writing it down, and appreciating what today was. We finished school for the day and I felt like we actually did enough. I washed, dried and folded an entire load of laundry. Now the girls are behind me making paper dolls and Copper is playing with a slinky. And I don’t have anything that I just have to get done for a client or an Etsy listing or some other unreasonable deadline I’ve set for myself.
I might feel differently next week, but today I’m just going to be grateful for the peace I have right now.