When women quit their day job to be stay-at-home moms, I’ve heard it’s a rough transition. I’ve heard they get the “go back to work” itch and it’s hard to adjust.

Is this what it feels like??

I’ve been a stay-at-home since I was 7 months pregnant with my oldest, Paislee. She’s turning 8 this year. And about the time all my babies get to be 9 months old, I feel like itch again to work on something.

I’ve started blogs, snail mail side hustles, weaving and crocheting shops, crochet pattern design, and finally my illustration business.

Guess how old Copper was when I started that?… 9 months.

And I always stopped to slow down before another baby arrives. No baby is currently in the oven, so stopping isn’t so I can slow down and rest. It’s so I can focus on the kids I already have!

But it also feels like I’m slowing down so I can unload the dishwasher and switch the laundry and that’s really just not what I had intended.

I feel like a house wife.

Like if someone were to ask me “what I do,” I’d just say… I’m a stay at home mom. Not an illustrator. Because what I do is teach my kids and sweep the floors.

Ok, that’s not all I do.

I have been reading more and drawing for myself. I’ve had plenty of time to do the Young Women and Girl’s Camp tasks. And life feels less stressful without deadlines.

But it’s still a really weird feeling. And I definitely think this is how people might feel when they leave the work force to come home. I know it will get better and I know I will enjoy the pace once we all settle in. But right now, I just feel a little aimless because homeschooling is a lot like laundry. There isn’t an end in sight.

And that’s what it feels like right now.